The Music and the Moment

What is this music inside me that never stops? The single unending note that keeps going on and on. Does it come from outside? I concentrate upon it and I realise it comes from deep within! No human device can produce something like it.

I realise - it is not the breaths I intake that keep me alive, nor the pumping of blood by my heart but this music..... It is the source of my being, my existence, my life.

But it is always at the edge of my hearing, like it will fade away into nothingness. And then, sometimes, suddenly from nowhere, it comes in with a great rush, this sound, becoming a mighty roar & it fills me with such unutterable joy that no season, no air, no rain drop, no sight (except the sight of YOU), no warmth, no coldness has ever brought me.

I feel this joy dancing in me, filling me to the brim and then permeating through me, rushing out and inturn, impregnating everything around me. And I become everything and everything becomes I.

Would that be how a mother feels when she hugs her child, that she becomes both the child and the mother?

Would that be how the sun would feel when it shines on a pond, that it becomes both the sun and the pond?

But this moment of undefinable joy passes as quickly as it arrives, differentiating me, separating me from everything else around me, leaving me once again in the swaddles that i must carry until I become the pure joy, LOVE!!

And I await this moment to come to pass again.